Waiting Game

Well, Little Man, where are you? You are officially one day overdue and showing no signs that you are even considering making your arrival anytime soon. This is not very encouraging for me and the least you could do is give your mama a sign that something is happening. Anything...

I really suck at waiting games. I can't even imagine being one of those women who are ten days, two weeks, or even more over due. I'm not even a full day late and I feel like I am going to break down and cry if nothing happens soon. I would go crazy if I were allowed to go so far past my due date. As it is, five days seems like a lifetime. Part of me wants to go in and beg to be induced today. Unfortunately, that isn't going to happen.

I don't think it would be so bad if my body would only give me some kind of sign that something was happening. A week ago I was getting all kinds of practise contractions all throughout the day and that gave me hope, but they just stopped this week. I haven't gotten more than a few a day and they are always very spread out. I feel like any kind of progress has just stopped. I don't even know how far dilated or effaced I am, or if the baby is even engaged. The doctor hasn't checked me in the last two weeks. I understand why. It really would make no difference how far along I am now because no matter what baby is coming within the week. However, I now have absolutely nothing to go by, no idea how far along I might be. It's quite frustrating... Like I said, if I knew something was happening, anything at all, I think being over due wouldn't be so difficult.

But, it is what it is. All I can do is try to help things along by staying active and hope that something happens on it's own. For all I know, half an hour from now my body could kick it in to high gear all of a sudden, or maybe it will build up gradually over the weekend, or maybe I will experience nothing at all and on Wednesday I will go in for my induction. I can't predict when labour is going to happen, so I'm just going to have to get used to the waiting game. At least until Wednesday...

Oh wait. Can I just add quickly that being miserably sick at nine months pregnant is no fun at all? It really isn't. Yesterday I woke up with a sore throat, aching ears, and a massive sinus headache. My throat is no longer sore, but the aching ears and sinus headache are still there. Add in nausea to the mix, from post nasal drip. There is absolutely nothing that the pharmacists deem safe for me to take, so I must suffer through until A). it goes away on it's own, B). I have the baby and can finally take some kind of medication to help ease the symptoms, or C). it becomes so bad that I develop an infection and have no choice but to take antibiotics. I think being sick is making it harder to wait as well. It is making these last few days of pregnancy absolutely miserable for me.

Okay, I'm done complaining now...